[ ah... yukari's not sure why, but she feels her heart sink at that, and the disappointment is written all over her face.
no, that's not quite true. she knows exactly why that statement feels like such a thorn to her. it's because yukari feels like a failure, not being enough of an anchor to this world to keep mumei here, not even being a good enough master to know what to do when things all but slam into a brick wall.
she thought she was past this. that she wouldn't be a burden anymore, but all she's done is find other ways to hold people back. at her side, kiku pushes her nose underneath yukari's hand, but yukari can't even look up, dashing her free hand across her eyes. ]
[Robin stares at her out of the corner of his eye for a few seconds, then stands up again, stretching his arms. Once that's done, he reaches over to her and attempts to grab her waist, pulling her into a princess carry if he's successful.]
Okay, but you're coming with me.
[He'd be a sad excuse for a Servant if he didn't at least try to help her feel better.]
[ a leash?! yukari's so offended by that she could literally tear into robin until there was nothing left of him, but he's giving her an option to be set down, so she's going to take that instead. ]
... Yeah, I'll follow, if you don't ever think about putting me on a leash again.
[Robin sets her down, then gently picks up Mashu instead. He doesn't want to leave the sheep unsupervised, but she doesn't seem like she's in much of a position to feel like moving herself...]
What do you want to eat? If you say "nothing" I'll just take you somewhere I want to go instead, so don't try it.
[This is how you cheer people up, right? You feed them? He's in Sweetgum so his options are limited, but Yukari's higher status might open up a few otherwise closed doors...]
[ kiku and thunder follow close behind, their little hooves digging into the light frost upon the ground.
yukari's well aware of their social statuses now, having it thrown in stark contrast because of the white lily attack, and the last thing she wants to do is put either of them in harm's way until things calm down a little and they can figure out what to do and where to go from there. ]
That depends... Can you cook?
[ she's pretty sure he can. their first conversation involved him discussing the fact that he's familiar with "animal parts". ]
[The last guy who ate his cooking was his dad, who wouldn't have lived anyway, but he's not too keen on the idea of having his food compared to Emiya's right after he vanished. He's a competent cook, but nowhere near Emiya's level.]
[ really, did robin never cook for himself? it's that absurd thought that twists a wry smile across yukari's lips that disappears almost as soon as it appears. ]
Then I guess I'll hafta teach you. [ so she'll reach out and take robin by the wrist — ] C'mon, the Willow kitchen's still full of food.
yukari glances up at him out of the corner of her eye, an eyebrow lifting ]
"You just" what? [ ah, there it is, a slight quirk in her mouth. her tone is gently chastising, echoing words he said to her earlier. ] If you're not gonna finish that statement, then don't start it.
You said yours first, so if anyone should go first it's you.
[He isn't budging on this.]
I can't believe I've never thought of putting my hood up. What a great idea, and one that definitely hides the distinctive, bushy tail of a fox.
[He's pretty heavy on the sarcasm because he doesn't really think she's put too much thought into how much effort it requires to keep such an obvious symbol of status under wraps. Even with the cloak on, it's pretty clearly making an outline in the fabric.]
What, so I can walk around looking like I've pissed myself when the cloak or my pants get wet, too? I already have to deal with being treated like garbage, the last thing I need is to be humiliated like that.
[And taking off the cloak isn't an option because he can't disappear without it.]
that joke, however, is too clumsy for her, and she's already feeling kind of down on herself for being such an awful master that all she can do is scoop up kiku when the tiny thing lets out a loud bleat. it's almost like these creatures can understand what they're saying!! ]
There's some fish, I think. Lots of vegetables, maybe some chicken. I'm not too good at cooking that, though.
[ mashu darts away, a few dozen feet ahead of them, stopping at the door to the willow dorms. ]
I'm fine with fish, that stuff's easy. [ mainly because it doesn't take long to cook, depending on what type of fish it is. ] But if you wanna do chicken, I can gather up the spices and cut the vegetables?
Either is good, I'm not picky. We might as well eat whatever there's more of in the pantry - that way I'm not imposing too much.
[Is it really imposing if Sweetgum barely gets enough to eat in the first place? Robin grimaces, a little upset at himself for already falling right back into place, in the mindset of a peasant with all the pressure of the nobility bearing down on his shoulders.]
...ugh. Let's just see what we have to work with.
I WAS WONDERING HOW LONG IT WOULD TAKE FOR THAT TO HAPPEN TBH
[ it takes yukari a moment to answer, 100% sure she's going to get some resistance from robin on what she's about to say: ]
No, take as much as you want. [ it's not imposing at all, in her opinion. she trots up the stairs to the door, sliding inside and holding it open for robin even though he's a fuckin ghost and can just ghost bullshit his way inside. ] There's barely anyone here. I dunno about what Servants need to eat, but we get more stuff than we know what to do with, and I'd rather someone eat it than have it go to waste.
[ which is also kind of a heavy hint that robin should just take some shit from the pantry and take it into the sweetgum dorms, but she's not stupid enough to say that out loud after all the other missteps she's had in this conversation already. ]
[Robin seems unsurprised but disappointed by her response. It's not aimed at her, but at the unequal distribution system.]
If you have more of anything useful than you know what to do with, what you should do with it is give it to people who need it.
[Money, old clothing, food, it applies to just about everything he can think of. There's always someone worse off.]
Ah, but if anyone asks, I just borrowed it, okay?
[For all the missteps, this is a huge leap forward. She's basically encouraging him to steal without encouraging him to steal, and he's definitely going to take advantage of that. He'll leave plenty of food for the people who live here, of course, but he'll see to it that his own are provided for, too.
He's not sure when Sweetgum became "his own", but maybe they always have been, since he realized what the social structure here is like.]
[ if yukari was wearing glasses, this would be the part where she'd glance suspiciously over them at robin. ]
... I don't think anyone in Sweetgum would appreciate me treating them as a charity case. [ mainly because she would h a t e being treated as such. yukari always offers to pay for lunch or clothes or something whenever she's out with someone of a lower class (because the only person she knows in holly is archer and he doesn't know what to do with his money, either), but there's always a fine line between being helpful and, well, treating someone like they can't get along without her help. she'd rather not cross that line, even though she knows from experience just how difficult it can be to ask for help, especially when it's needed. ] Hakuno-chan and Caster seem to do fine, so I'm pretty sure I'd be insulting them if I tried too hard.
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no, that's not quite true. she knows exactly why that statement feels like such a thorn to her. it's because yukari feels like a failure, not being enough of an anchor to this world to keep mumei here, not even being a good enough master to know what to do when things all but slam into a brick wall.
she thought she was past this. that she wouldn't be a burden anymore, but all she's done is find other ways to hold people back. at her side, kiku pushes her nose underneath yukari's hand, but yukari can't even look up, dashing her free hand across her eyes. ]
Then just go back to what you were doing.
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Okay, but you're coming with me.
[He'd be a sad excuse for a Servant if he didn't at least try to help her feel better.]
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Wh, what the hell!?
[ for a second, at least, she's distracted from feeling bad for herself. ]
What is it with you two and carrying me! Put me down!
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[It takes every ounce of his willpower to say this without flirting.]
If you follow me, I'll put you down. If not, I'm just gonna have to carry you, because I don't trust you to not lock yourself up and wallow.
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... Yeah, I'll follow, if you don't ever think about putting me on a leash again.
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What do you want to eat? If you say "nothing" I'll just take you somewhere I want to go instead, so don't try it.
[This is how you cheer people up, right? You feed them? He's in Sweetgum so his options are limited, but Yukari's higher status might open up a few otherwise closed doors...]
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yukari's well aware of their social statuses now, having it thrown in stark contrast because of the white lily attack, and the last thing she wants to do is put either of them in harm's way until things calm down a little and they can figure out what to do and where to go from there. ]
That depends... Can you cook?
[ she's pretty sure he can. their first conversation involved him discussing the fact that he's familiar with "animal parts". ]
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[The last guy who ate his cooking was his dad, who wouldn't have lived anyway, but he's not too keen on the idea of having his food compared to Emiya's right after he vanished. He's a competent cook, but nowhere near Emiya's level.]
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Then I guess I'll hafta teach you. [ so she'll reach out and take robin by the wrist — ] C'mon, the Willow kitchen's still full of food.
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I know how to cook, I just -
[He doesn't really feel like discussing his insecurities, so he cuts himself off there and lets her drag him around for now.]
If you burn yourself or something I'm not helping you.
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yukari glances up at him out of the corner of her eye, an eyebrow lifting ]
"You just" what? [ ah, there it is, a slight quirk in her mouth. her tone is gently chastising, echoing words he said to her earlier. ] If you're not gonna finish that statement, then don't start it.
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[And so he does.]
Isn't it going to be weird to drag someone from Sweetgum into the dorms, though? We aren't exactly in the best position right now.
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[ and she means that, regardless of whether robin is ignoring her. ]
If you're worried, keep your hood up. I think most of the guards aren't there during the day, since a lot of the residents are out doing their stuff.
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[He isn't budging on this.]
I can't believe I've never thought of putting my hood up. What a great idea, and one that definitely hides the distinctive, bushy tail of a fox.
[He's pretty heavy on the sarcasm because he doesn't really think she's put too much thought into how much effort it requires to keep such an obvious symbol of status under wraps. Even with the cloak on, it's pretty clearly making an outline in the fabric.]
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[ she's not budging on this either, and she's got emiya-levels of stubbornness running through her veins.
but she's not stupid, and she picks up on the sarcasm. not that it's difficult, of course. ]
... So get it wet.
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[And taking off the cloak isn't an option because he can't disappear without it.]
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and that thorn gets a little deeper in her chest. ]
... Sorry.
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[He really, truly hates it here, because he can't just kill his way out of this one like last time.]
So we're having lamb, right?
[He hoists Mashu a little further up his shoulder, obviously joking in a somewhat clumsy attempt to make her feel better.]
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that joke, however, is too clumsy for her, and she's already feeling kind of down on herself for being such an awful master that all she can do is scoop up kiku when the tiny thing lets out a loud bleat. it's almost like these creatures can understand what they're saying!! ]
There's some fish, I think. Lots of vegetables, maybe some chicken. I'm not too good at cooking that, though.
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[Thunder bumps his leg affectionately as Robin deposits Mashu on the floor.]
We mostly had livestock, but I got some practice cooking other things at Chaldea, so I can handle the meat if you're not confident with it.
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I'm fine with fish, that stuff's easy. [ mainly because it doesn't take long to cook, depending on what type of fish it is. ] But if you wanna do chicken, I can gather up the spices and cut the vegetables?
WRONG JOURNAL LMFAO
Either is good, I'm not picky. We might as well eat whatever there's more of in the pantry - that way I'm not imposing too much.
[Is it really imposing if Sweetgum barely gets enough to eat in the first place? Robin grimaces, a little upset at himself for already falling right back into place, in the mindset of a peasant with all the pressure of the nobility bearing down on his shoulders.]
...ugh. Let's just see what we have to work with.
I WAS WONDERING HOW LONG IT WOULD TAKE FOR THAT TO HAPPEN TBH
No, take as much as you want. [ it's not imposing at all, in her opinion. she trots up the stairs to the door, sliding inside and holding it open for robin
even though he's a fuckin ghost and can just ghost bullshit his way inside. ] There's barely anyone here. I dunno about what Servants need to eat, but we get more stuff than we know what to do with, and I'd rather someone eat it than have it go to waste.[ which is also kind of a heavy hint that robin should just take some shit from the pantry and take it into the sweetgum dorms, but she's not stupid enough to say that out loud after all the other missteps she's had in this conversation already. ]
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If you have more of anything useful than you know what to do with, what you should do with it is give it to people who need it.
[Money, old clothing, food, it applies to just about everything he can think of. There's always someone worse off.]
Ah, but if anyone asks, I just borrowed it, okay?
[For all the missteps, this is a huge leap forward. She's basically encouraging him to steal without encouraging him to steal, and he's definitely going to take advantage of that. He'll leave plenty of food for the people who live here, of course, but he'll see to it that his own are provided for, too.
He's not sure when Sweetgum became "his own", but maybe they always have been, since he realized what the social structure here is like.]
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... I don't think anyone in Sweetgum would appreciate me treating them as a charity case. [ mainly because she would h a t e being treated as such. yukari always offers to pay for lunch or clothes or something whenever she's out with someone of a lower class (because the only person she knows in holly is archer and he doesn't know what to do with his money, either), but there's always a fine line between being helpful and, well, treating someone like they can't get along without her help. she'd rather not cross that line, even though she knows from experience just how difficult it can be to ask for help, especially when it's needed. ] Hakuno-chan and Caster seem to do fine, so I'm pretty sure I'd be insulting them if I tried too hard.
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i somehow lost this notif wtf???